it's only one week away to hari raya. and i'm not as excited as i was few years back. when its time for a celebration like this.. i'm always either baking something, preparing something all for hari raya. but then, this year, the only thing that im preparing for, is just my prelim exams. i don't know what the actual point my school is trying to give.. but hari raya is just few days away. like for real. but then my exams is also just few days away. do you know what this means? NO FRICKIN CELEBRATION.. atleast for me. and some other students. most, i think. but you know. it's okay. coming to think of it, this had got me really busy with school stuff. and not wasting my time with other pointless and worthless stuff.
i bet you guys are wondering.. if im doing okay or not. i'm okay right now. the thing about me back then, when someone i love leaves me, i would probably drag on about it for like few months. but me, right now, is different. some may say, i grew up, some may also say, i've changed. i dont know what made me so different from who i saw back then.. but for sure, i know, that i've grown up to deal with things like this, in a more better or lets just say, more mature way.
i'm seventeen. i always tell myself that i'm too young to deal with heartbreaks. but i also tell myself, you're old enough to know what right and wrong for myself. it's simple, in all aspects in our lifes. everything comes easy. just us, we make all difficult and complicated. how we think of our lifes, love, maybe, and everything that comes together, seems hard.
i always tell myself there's more to life than dumb love. you can't base your whole entire life to just one person. love does not work that way. you have to know that when youre in a relationship with someone, you have to make it count. dont fight over pointless drama. you have to enjoy.. before it's over. you know what i mean? you have to expect bad things to happen? you can not expect things like this. the possibilities of anything in life, especially in love or in anything basically, is what kept us going. you know? hoping and stuff like that.
i'm a hopeless romantic. i know. it's cheesy as hell, but that who i'am. i wait for someone i know i can never have. thats me. but it kept me happy. like having crushes kept me happy. you know, it doesnt kill that much to like someone you can never have. life is beautiful. love is... sometimes beautiful too. he he.
i should end this post here. good night! xoxo
