anyways. how are all of you annoying yet lovable reader doing? me? i'm okay. i'm only convincing myself that i'm okay, i'm fine or atleast insya Allah i will be okay sooner or later. im not exactly in a state where i'm at my lowest, or at my breaking point or whatever. i'm just sad. maybe hurt. and i just felt alone. this sounds desperate as ever. but it's the sad actual truth eh. oh wells.
you know when you leave someone, you'd say i'm sorry we should end this and bla bla bla. i would prolly take that as a... "oh, okay. he's sorry. bye now." but the things is that.. it sucked a whole lot worst when a person leaves you like "We're over, bye." that's just.... what? that's just downright stupid and dumb. dont you think so too? ok just imagine this.
this girl like this boy. this boy like this girl. they fell inlove. they date. they hung out. they made promises. promises of never leaving each other no matter what. promises of always fighting for their love. promises of always trying no matter what. they stayed up all night. they shared. they listened. they laughed. they loved. and then one day he decided he changed. and then he leaves the girl. and the girl was left alone.. still wondering where she went wrong. where they went wrong. why he changed.
that just... it just hurt doesnt it. atleast for me. but well. my friends always told me that you have to expect people to change. no matter how much they promise you, no matter how many times they swore to you that they will never leave. you have got to expect one day they will change.
some people change for the better, some people change for the worst. and if he somehow changed for the worst... its like i want to wish him all the best but at the same time i want him to fall apart like i did. its stupid isn't it?
let's get on with our lives now. my live now, without Syazmir. insya Allah. if i had been happy before i met him, i sure can be happy once more after him. Bismillah.