syawal 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012 6:11 AM
Eid Mubarak people of the earth! for those not celebrating it... happy happy weekends! or weekdays. haha. i'm a tinsy bit late. but hey, better late than never!
haha. okay. how are raya celebration happening anw? hope everythings well and good for everyone out there :>
so hello guys. its already the 6th day of syawal. and i've gone through a week of prelims fine and not that well but hey i survived! haha. pretty much screwed up all my papers.... :/ oh wells. i'm only left with one more prelim paper! and its geography paper 2! yeheeeee. so super excited to get it over and done with. but then.........
i have another four more days to deal with school then there's gonna be a one week school holidays! yay! but.............
on that week of holiday... i have my malay and english Nlevel paper. written!! ARGH. shoots self please. oh wells..............
so i have nothing much to blab or rant on. he he. bye now lovelies.
fireworks
Monday, August 13, 2012 10:09 PM
so last saturday, i met up with my favorite girls. and we all went to Zawanah's place to have our iftar together. meaning, we buka puasa al together. it wasn't complete though, the twins werent there, khadijah also not there, and kartika too :(
but nevertheless, it was such a fun time to have a feast with them girls. been a while since we last go out together and have a meal. but yeah anyways, we played bunga api but mona burned her skin :< kesian dia.
but yeah.
its tuesday you guys! and i'm home, skipping school bcos i just felt like it. mostly bcos, i was sick yesterday and i didnt get the chance to finish any of my homework at all.. so yeah. but other than that, im healing. meaning, im getting better! yeay!
i honestly am not excited at all for hari raya..
why? because it's prelims you guys. i've been stressing on this blog about this way too much, i think its getting annoying. i know. but i just.. it's freaking prelims.
and i'm tired.
haha. ok! i'm out.
hi
Thursday, August 9, 2012 7:22 AM
it's only one week away to hari raya. and i'm not as excited as i was few years back. when its time for a celebration like this.. i'm always either baking something, preparing something all for hari raya. but then, this year, the only thing that im preparing for, is just my prelim exams. i don't know what the actual point my school is trying to give.. but hari raya is just few days away. like for real. but then my exams is also just few days away. do you know what this means? NO FRICKIN CELEBRATION.. atleast for me. and some other students. most, i think. but you know. it's okay. coming to think of it, this had got me really busy with school stuff. and not wasting my time with other pointless and worthless stuff.
i bet you guys are wondering.. if im doing okay or not. i'm okay right now. the thing about me back then, when someone i love leaves me, i would probably drag on about it for like few months. but me, right now, is different. some may say, i grew up, some may also say, i've changed. i dont know what made me so different from who i saw back then.. but for sure, i know, that i've grown up to deal with things like this, in a more better or lets just say, more mature way.
i'm seventeen. i always tell myself that i'm too young to deal with heartbreaks. but i also tell myself, you're old enough to know what right and wrong for myself. it's simple, in all aspects in our lifes. everything comes easy. just us, we make all difficult and complicated. how we think of our lifes, love, maybe, and everything that comes together, seems hard.
i always tell myself there's more to life than dumb love. you can't base your whole entire life to just one person. love does not work that way. you have to know that when youre in a relationship with someone, you have to make it count. dont fight over pointless drama. you have to enjoy.. before it's over. you know what i mean? you have to expect bad things to happen? you can not expect things like this. the possibilities of anything in life, especially in love or in anything basically, is what kept us going. you know? hoping and stuff like that.
i'm a hopeless romantic. i know. it's cheesy as hell, but that who i'am. i wait for someone i know i can never have. thats me. but it kept me happy. like having crushes kept me happy. you know, it doesnt kill that much to like someone you can never have. life is beautiful. love is... sometimes beautiful too. he he.
i should end this post here. good night! xoxo
Thursday, August 2, 2012 6:31 AM
hi lovely people of the earth. how are all of annoying beings doing? hehe. me? oh i'm............ just, still breathing. haha. there's nothing much to update here. i just felt the need to dust of this old blog of mine with a decent updated post.
so hello hey how you doing
haha?
its already the end of july........ and its only few weeks away to Hari Raya. its also few weeks away to my prelims. HAH pengsan bye
but anyways. i might not do well in my prelims. i can assure you guys that. mostly bcos i have yet to revise any shit at all. plus! biology and chem syllabus has yet to be covered by my tchers........... now what!? thanks so much sekolah arabiah tersayang bagi prelims dkt dgn exam date itself mwa i laff you so much
okie ke dokie i out now bcos i dont have anything more cooler to say no that what i say up there is cool at all oink just sayinnnnnnnnn bye poop
Goodbye, S.
Friday, July 20, 2012 10:52 PM
hi lovely people of the world. Ramadhan is officially here! and ofcourse Alhamdulillah i have yet to be on my period. hehe. so let's just pray i wont be in that state anytime sooner. insya Allah hekhek.
anyways. how are all of you annoying yet lovable reader doing? me? i'm okay. i'm only convincing myself that i'm okay, i'm fine or atleast insya Allah i will be okay sooner or later. im not exactly in a state where i'm at my lowest, or at my breaking point or whatever. i'm just sad. maybe hurt. and i just felt alone. this sounds desperate as ever. but it's the sad actual truth eh. oh wells.
you know when you leave someone, you'd say i'm sorry we should end this and bla bla bla. i would prolly take that as a... "oh, okay. he's sorry. bye now." but the things is that.. it sucked a whole lot worst when a person leaves you like "We're over, bye." that's just.... what? that's just downright stupid and dumb. dont you think so too? ok just imagine this.
this girl like this boy. this boy like this girl. they fell inlove. they date. they hung out. they made promises. promises of never leaving each other no matter what. promises of always fighting for their love. promises of always trying no matter what. they stayed up all night. they shared. they listened. they laughed. they loved. and then one day he decided he changed. and then he leaves the girl. and the girl was left alone.. still wondering where she went wrong. where they went wrong. why he changed.
that just... it just hurt doesnt it. atleast for me. but well. my friends always told me that you have to expect people to change. no matter how much they promise you, no matter how many times they swore to you that they will never leave. you have got to expect one day they will change.
some people change for the better, some people change for the worst. and if he somehow changed for the worst... its like i want to wish him all the best but at the same time i want him to fall apart like i did. its stupid isn't it?
let's get on with our lives now. my live now, without Syazmir. insya Allah. if i had been happy before i met him, i sure can be happy once more after him. Bismillah.
